Friday, July 3, 2009

A Room With a View

"Les Coquelicots a Argenteuil (Poppies Near Argenteuil)" by Claude Monet

I'm sitting here in my study overlooking Hidden Pond and thinking about how we arrive at each moment. My friend, Diane, and I, were just outside on the porch having lunch, visiting about life, how certain circumstances that seemed challenging, and oh-so-difficult at the time, brought us to this moment.

Each relationship, each place I've lived, has taught me invaluable lessons, ever moving me onward down the River of Life. At times I pushed, took a few side trips, even what seemed like a retrograde step or two. Even these times brought me here, to this fine moment. We have our little journeys, we meet the people we are supposed to meet, we make mistakes, or what at first seemed to be mistakes, but somewhere along the way we learn there are no mistakes.

I am spending the summer here in Minnesota, possibly beyond. All I know right now, is what I know right now. This is where I am supposed to be. Guidance brought me here, and is now keeping me here. For how long? For whatever time I am here. I don't want or need to know anything else. Well, sometimes, I am tempted to project, look around the corner, stretch my neck to get a glimpse of what might be. Then I relax, remind myself that I don't need to know. The Universe is taking care of me, my life, and everyone else's, too. We're all in this together. We are all individuated aspects of the whole.

A friend sent me a Lisel Mueller poem yesterday titled, "Monet Refuses The Operation." It's full of beautiful lines describing the interconnectedness of life, each object ever part of the great All.
I especially liked these lines:

"I will not return to a universe
of objects that don't know each other,
as if islands were not the lost children
of one great continent."

We are One. This is becoming clearer and clearer to me. And I love that it is. Everything makes sense, everything is gently falling into place, everything fits. We are not learning, we are remembering, remembering who we really are. Every moment is THIS moment. Don't doubt it. Just Know it.